-------------------------------------------------------------------- Part 2
Relief flooded through Kaname and he smiled at the scared expression Zero was making, as if he expected to be reprimanded strictly. Running his fingers down Zero's cheek he asked: "Then why does it matter?"
What? Zero opened his eyes to see Kaname gazing at him with soft, smiling eyes. His restraining hands turned gentle and softly caressed Zero's face, moving across his cheeks and brushing the hair out of his eyes. Zero looked away. "But, doesn't it? Don't you feel weird, strange, awkward?" he asked, offering Kaname a medley of words while his hands went up unconsciously to cover Kaname's.
"Should I?" Kaname asked Zero. He let his words hang in the air for a moment before he spoke again, cutting Zero off. "Why should I? Why should I feel embarrassed
awkward?" I don't see any need to. I'm not committing a crime." Zero's face became troubled again. "But"
"But what?" Kaname asked petulantly. He was starting to get impatient. He couldn't see why Zero was making such a big fuss.
Zero glared at Kaname for interrupting him. "But, how are you so accepting? Didn't you always think it'd turn out differently? Didn't you think you'd fall in love with a girl?" Zero's eyes were huge as he gazed earnestly at Kaname. Kaname ran a hand through his hair, frustrated, and looked at Zero incredulously. He really didn't get it. he thought. Kaname sighed. How can I make it any clearer?
"I have lived for so long, and been so alone
that when I fell in love with you, it didn't matter to me
.and it still wouldn't matter," he said urgently, taking Zero's face and pulling him closer, completely serious. "Even if I hadn't been born three thousand years ago, I would love you just as much as I do now. It wouldn't change."
"But what about--"
"other people?" Kaname finished. "They don't matter, my little lark. What we feel isn't wrong. I love you, right? Is that love wrong? Why is it wrong that one man love another, or for that matter, a woman love another woman? Why does that seem wrong to everyone?" Kaname gently prodded Zero with his questions, hoping to show him his point of view.
Zero looked troubled. Kaname could see he had already thought through all of this, but was still caught on the words that were so carelessly thrown at him. Kaname shook Zero to bring him back to the present. "Is it really so different Zero, the love we share and the love others have? Is it? Love is the same everywhere, Zero, it is just expressed in different ways." Zero mulled over Kaname's words. Slowly memories started coming back to him. He remembered how he had first felt when he was with Kaname. He had felt so happy, giddy almost. It became the highlight of his day when he got to see him or when Kaname would randomly take a day off so they could spend it together.
Come to think of it, all the girls looked like that when they were with their boyfriends as well. Of course he didn't giggle stupidly, but it was much of the same feeling. If it was the same, then why did people separate it as different and wrong?
"Why are you even troubling yourself with what they think?" Kaname asked suddenly. "Do they mean more to you than the chairman or Yuuki?" He paused, his face pained as he said his next words: "More than me?" Kaname was distraught, the idea that Zero valued the opinions of other people more that the Chairman, Yuuki, and himself, made Kaname sick. What can I do? Kaname thought, feeling defeated. If Zero felt this way, then he had no other choice but to leave.
He ran a hand through Zero's hair and smiled. "If you don't want this, I can go." Kaname dropped his hand and backed away. Zero panicked at the sudden sickening chill that swept through his body. It may have just been a gust of wind or ghost chill, but Zero couldn't ignore the sudden panic that overtook him. What should I do? Should I do anything? If
if he left, then I could pretend that none of this happened and go back to a normal life, but
.if that happened, then what would I do? Would I be able to go on and live my life as a "normal" guy and love someone else? Zero looked at Kaname and took in the sight of him standing in the moonlight, his long lean body relaxed, waiting quietly for whatever decision Zero made. He was looking at him with unassuming eyes and Zero knew he wouldn't begrudge him for his choice.
He wrestled with himself mentally and accidentally let the silence stretch on longer than he intended. The light from Kaname's eyes faded and he turned away from Zero and began to walk away. Zero looked up suddenly, hearing sounds that were out of place. Tap. Tap. Tap. He found himself looking at Kaname's back as he was walking away. Zero blanched. What was going on? Where was he going?
Kaname was almost on the other side of the terrace before Zero found his voice. "NO!" he shouted in a strangled voice. Kaname paused mid-step at Zero's shout and turned around slowly, incredulous. His body language screamed one word: WHAT?!
Zero fumed. Where did he think he was going? I didn't even say anything yet! How could he even think about leaving?!? Not when I lo--. He stopped mid-thought and stormed over to Kaname, yelling as he went. "Where do you think you're going?!? Who told you, you could leave?"
Zero ran the last few steps and flung himself into Kaname's arms, wrapping his own around Kaname's chest tightly. "Idiot, don't make such troublesome decisions by yourself," Zero mumbled into Kaname's chest. Kaname stood in shock for a moment before sighing happily and wrapping his arms around Zero. He buried his face in Zero's hair and inhaled deeply, enjoying the scent he had sorely missed for a week. Zero blushed slightly at his behavior, but closed his eyes and let himself enjoy the feeling of being near Kaname.
The two stood there for some time before Kaname opened his eyes and jostled Zero slightly with his shoulder to catch his attention. "So what's going to happen tomorrow?" he asked. Zero looked away, embarrassed, but turned back to Kaname, eyes shining with determination.
"I'm not going to let them get to me anymore. I'm not going to hide anymore. I promise," Zero said with complete seriousness. "Never again will I hide how I feel." Kaname smiled a bit at Zero's seriousness, but appreciated how much strength it took Zero to leave his fears behind to be with him openly.
Kaname hugged him tighter. "Thank you," he whispered in Zero's ear. Zero mumbled something in response, but Kaname couldn't hear him. "Hmm?"
"I love you." Zero mumbled again, but louder. Kaname's eyes widened, he didn't think he'd ever heard those words from Zero, ever. "What?" he asked again out of astonishment.
"I love you," Zero said.
"I love you," Zero said loudly.
"Did you not, "Zero began angrily, but paused when he saw the mischievous glint in Kaname's eyes. Giving Kaname a death glare, Zero 'hmphed' and pursed his lips, refusing to say anything else.
"Seriously, I can't hear you! You're too short! What did you say?" Kaname asked. He waited expectantly, but Zero seemed adamant in his silence. Kaname smiled down at his head and blushing slightly, he rested his cheek against Zero's head. "I love you too." Zero grunted in response, but held Kaname tighter.
Since Kaname didn't feel like going back to class and Zero was still technically on duty, Kaname decided to stay back with Zero. They spent the entire night sitting on the ledge of the terrace, talking about everyday things, but each moment and every word was engraved into their memories as they began their eternity together anew.